Thursday, September 27, 2007



Who wants desserts?

I want!

No no... I'm not talking about desserts...

I'm talking about the word "desserts" read in backwards.

My lecturer thinks the word has been abused by students, overly used or it is an overstatement to use that word.

She didn't realise that the word is so oftenly abused because of her. I wanted to tell her that I always get headaches after attending her lecture. As usual, I never had the guts to do it, or rather I haven't found the guts to say so.

As much as I dislike her autocratic nature, I find her quite a respectable lecturer in terms of what she tells us in class and the way she goes about on the subject she teaches.

She is likeable on one hand and unlikeable on the other. She told us there was once where a group of girls labelled her as the "mean machine." It was kinda funny when she told us because I remembered something at that point in time.

There was one time at the closing of her lecture when she sort of "lectured" us. She noticed the look on our faces after her "lecture" and said, "You all look like you've just been hit by a three-tonne truck." That's when we, students thought the same thing... she's the three-tonne truck. Lol.

But then again, I still admire her. The question is to what extent do I admire her.

Now, I'm hungry. Let's get desserts! (literally)

Friday, September 14, 2007

My Prayer

Dear Jesus,

You know the troubles and circumstances we go thru' day by day. You know we are not perfect human beings. We do make mistakes sometimes and most of the time we end up emo-ing instead of going back to You. Oh God, sometimes I really wonder if I'm doing the right thing or whether I'm in the right track. It's just so hard to see where exactly am I going. I know that Your ways are not our ways and Your thoughts are higher than our thoughts. Help me Lord to know right from wrong and keep me always on the right path. Lord, teach me Your ways. Guide me in all Your ways and make my life pleasing unto You. Lead me not into temptation and deliver me from the evil one. Help me to be a shining light to the people and may my light bring glory to Your name, Lord. Let me not be deceived by the works of Your enemies and keep me holy in whatever I do or say. Jesus, You are Lord over my life, forever and ever.

In Jesus' name, I pray


Am I living in denial?

I feel so up for blogging after coming back from my college's orientation dinner. I had mixed feelings for 2 days comtemplating whether to go for converge conference or dinner. Only today I decided to go for the dinner.

For the first half an hour I felt under-dressed cos most of them were wearing dresses and skirts. It was supposedly semi-formal. That was their "semi-formal" according to my friend who was wearing a dress which I thought was more for prom.

So, to cut the long story short... this post is like a "sanity-check" kinda post (that's what my lecturer calls it). So, if you don't wanna read then skip it.

During the performances, I sang along with them, swayed, clapped, and cheered. On one hand, I was kinda happy but on the other I was like "What am I doing here? I'm supposed to sing,clap all those in church in the conference..." It's really weird come to think of it. I'm not really an outgoing person. I don't go clubbing, I don't drink at all, I don't dance also, I don't really listen to secular music (I know some but not as many as you), basically I don't do what a normal, average teenager does at this age. Gosh, I'm revealing to much of myself. Those of you who know me, will know even if I didn't tell you.

Is it wrong? Have I been living in denial all these while? Being a good girl, staying at home most of the time and not going clubbing with friends? Am I being abnormal? Or are these merely peer pressures and the deception from the devil?

I tend to think it's the latter. I think it's better that way... (lol) Talk about dancing... I can't dance even during worship to Jesus and you want me to dance in front of so many unknown people with secular music?

Anyway, it's also good to see the many antics of our lecturers tonight which we do not usually see during lectures. They made us think that lawyers are not all serious all the time.

I'm kinda worried later on as I further my studies in the UK. With all these peer pressures coming my way, will I be able to withstand them and stand firm on my own principles? The thing is I get influenced easily. I'm worried that I'll suddenly either end up a clubber every weekend or be a lonely freak who stays in the hostel most of the time studying or if not, watching movies alone.

I must stress again that this is not an emo post. It is called a "sanity-check" post. Just in case.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Read, read, read

"Read aloud! 3 times! Read! Read!"

This was relatively the very few infamous statement from one of my SAM lecturers last year.
It suddenly struck me that what she had said that I took in vain all along had made sense to me only after one and a half years. Well, not entirely..but the word "READ".

When I first started my Law degree in Help in July, not one lecturer missed out mentioning to us students to read more. Not only read.. but read MORE... The fact that they know so much more than me made me feel pressured to read stuff that I used to (and still) find them boring/uninteresting.

Basically, I don't have a problem reading. The part which I find difficulty in is when I have to force myself to fix my eyes on "stuff"/reading materials that don't appeal to me. And this is not good...

I practically have (or pretend) to show some interest in what I don't enjoy reading. Apparently this will help me in my studies or if not, in the future.

After all, "it's all for your own good." (I Not Stupid)

Those who are doing Law will know what I'm going through.. :p

Sunday, September 02, 2007

I haven't been blogging

My disappearing act was due to lack of time,motivation and inspiration.

Now that I'm back, it's not that I've found them but to inform you that I haven't forgotten about my blog or how to blog...